I’m BACK!!!

I’m BACK!!!

Jul 26, 2014

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I’ve been away for a few months and to make a long story short, I have been really hurt. I have a torn hip labrum (hopefully I don’t need surgery) it’s still really painful, torn groin and my lower back is screwed up too. Yes I am a big bag of mess.  After watching everyone lift more and more weight as the weeks went by and as I got weaker and weaker made me feel like I did when I was hurt and stuck on the couch for 6 years. Not a good feeling. Then Raw nationals came and after seeing that I would like to say I was motivated but that would be a lie. I was angry and proud at the same time. Angry at myself and angry at everyone that was able to compete because I couldn’t and proud of all my friends and teammates that put everything they had into training and that meet. This sport is everything to me. Most days I feel like I was born in the wrong century. I feel like I belong on a battle field wielding an ax covered in the blood of my enemies. This sport is the only thing that makes me feel even somewhat normal, so for it to be taken away makes me crazy.

I have been training bench and shoulders and have been making lots of progress on that but you cant win a national title with just a bench, especially in my opinion the hardest, deepest weight class.

Last week on Friday I woke up out of a dead sleep sweating and breathing heavy. I woke up because I dreamed I was back on my couch and I was going to be there for the rest of my life this time. I know this may sound dumb to most but until you have something ripped from you and you aren’t able to do anything remotely close to what you could do or even walk for longer than 5 min without falling, then you wouldn’t get it. I lived that nightmare for 6 years and one day after I stumbled to the bathroom I looked in the mirror and didn’t see myself anymore. I didn’t see me in that mirror for a long time. That day was the day that changed everything. I looked in that mirror and  said “THIS IS ENOUGH! YOU WILL NOT BE THIS CRIPPLE ANYMORE!!! THE ONLY THING STOPPING YOU IS YOU!!!” I have lived by that ever since. After I awoke from that nightmare on Friday, I went to the bathroom to splash some water on my face and saw the person I hated again. That little bastard I thought I killed years ago was staring me in the face as if to mock me. I almost put my fist through the mirror. Yelling at nothing but the  memory of someone that I hated and told myself I would never see again. Needless to say I didn’t go back to sleep. I paced in my living room until 5am, went to sleep and woke up ready to kill everyone and everything. Saturday I shoulder pressed 300×1!! @9 ….That Monday I squatted 555×2 @9. This was me metaphorically building the iron coffin to bury that little prick inside me in once and for all! I have work to do just to get back to where I was but mark my words, I am going to destroy everything the next time I step on that platform!

Wednesday I benched 400×3… that’s right, I said 400×3! I”M BACK!!!!

Friday I did some speed pulls and realized one major thing. My DL Program needs a major change. Lots more volume.. 600 plus will get ripped off the floor next meet

Thanks for reading and thanks to all the support from my incredible family, friends, and teammates.

On a side note I am going for a very big sponsorship with 1st Phorm and would appreciate any support you could give me. Follow me on instagram  @Brickhousepower    and youtube thanks

THE ONLY THING STOPPING YOU IS YOU!!!

 

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  1. Debra /

    I needed to read this. I thought my injury (only 7 months now) killed my motivation with MY PLATFORM DREAM so close. Read your article and got seriously pissed at myself. I’m good at motivating everyone but myself, so THANK YOU for kicking my ass! I need to bury the hardware in my leg! I’m building a spaceship to send it faaaaaaaaaaaar away! YOU WILL SEE ME ON THE PLATFORM! I know you. The BEAST you are never dies, it just sleeps

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